Bag Lady

wrote this a year ago wanted to place this on my new account..
im a bag lady
I have been a bag lady and Ive been crowdn space...
left no room for blessings to come

Im ready

wow so much on my mind tonight
I havent been able to let go of past relationships
I cant get rid of past pains

I cant shake them old skeletons
acceptance
true love
true assurance
what can make things better
Forgiveness
peace of mind is my desire
Confidence
pure confidence

The time is come to speak what is on mind. Time is come to get rid of those bags
they are filled with pain, resentment, hurts, hate, depression
I rap myself in pure happiness
Ive protected myself too long and the load has been heavy
I am ready to drop them one by one and now the sun shines on me.
I am ready to no longer crowd space

No one knows like I know what God has done for me!

I know better so I do better..

lol yea right! Sad I wish it was true. I know better so I have no excuse now... Yesterday I was having a discusion with my friend about his lifestyle. A lifestyle he told me he was going to give up/ gave up. I trusted his word. He has never given me a reason not to. But for me being the such of creature of patterns and behavioral changes I knew this was not the truth. So I asked him. He looked at me . Didnt say a word, but he knew that I knew and now im dissapointed. Why? Not because of dishonesty. Because he simply knows better. Deserves better, and is worth more than the choices he is making in his life. I swear his raw talent with people, his work and his passions cant be touched right now. It oozes from his pores! Thats right oozes. Gods calling so strong on his life. I know it sounds cliche' . But its so true and evident. Will he make the choice to do better? I pray and hope so. Im speaking to myself.. Will I LaShon Lynea make the choice to do better? I know better. I know better . I KNOW better! I have NO excuses now...